another string of rantings....
    - Sunday, February 26, 2006

Think life really makes a fool of you sometimes...I was walking towards the arts canteen when I saw someone who looked like his friend..so I fastened my pace, lowered my head and continued walking ahead.Once again, I engaged in my avoiding tactic which I have been doing all my life.Not a good thing at all.Then I heard someone call my name.I pretended I did not hear,my heart continued pounding non-stop, and I walked even faster..How can anyone be so loserish like me? So I just want to apologize if it was you who saw me near the arts canteen the other time and attempted to call me.I just wanted to save myself from all the embarrassment that might arise if I were to bump into him.

So I just moved on. I thought good. That episode was finally over.But no I was wrong.As I was walking to the Kent Ridge Terminal, I saw this familiar person coming down the bus. Goodness. That's him! I turned and walked away from the terminal. Another episode of avoiding all over again. So now I had to uturn and go all the way back to another bustop. Sigh..Why am I running away from people all my life?

Last week was not the best week anyone could possibly have. Apart from what I just mentioned, something happened with my family as well. My dad went to see a specialist and had to go for a scoop to check if he might potentially be suffering from cancer. But luckily all is fine now.

Next,I missed the deadline of a major term paper for biological psychology. Not my favourite module but I have never missed deadlines for any papers before. I have no idea why this time around I was so careless. SO I ended up staying up the whole of last night and spent a record time of 6 hours to finish up the paper. Thankfully, my lecturer replied that he would not penalise too badly.

Both negative events turned out well in the end and I really must thank God for taking care of me and my family.

To add to that,I really dislike the person who keeps tagging on my blog anonymously. He makes me feel almost worse about myself which again is not a good thing. So the only thing that I can do to get that person off my back is to close down this blog.This probably will be my last entry in this present blog...

It's just too painful to be hearing words of advice from the 'know-it-all' who actually does not know anything. And what hit me quite badly was that my gf suggested that the person might actually be him...cos he just wants me to give up all hope..which I am seriously crossing my fingers that it's not.In my mind, he's a really good guy whom I shouldn't have let go off and now I have to face the consequences of that initial move. I am trying my best already and I don't need anyone telling me what to do...

By the way, thanks to Alexis for your encouraging email!!love ya babe!!

raeanchiq penned her thoughts @ 5:19 PM