No matter how hard I try, I'm back to feeling the same way all over again....
    - Sunday, February 12, 2006

I'm not exactly in the best of moods these days.After my birthday, somehow things have begun to go downslope. I am stuck with the realization that school work is piling up to the maximum and I fear that I do not have the strength and determination to carry on.

I've experienced unrequited love so many times before but none so painful as now.The hope that de person might still have feelings for me have evaporated and the harsh reality sinks in that no matter what you do, that person will never come back to you again.I thought I was strong enough to handle it but I guess not.

But attending Mass today was a blessing for me as with all other Masses. We sang the song "You are Mine" as a thanksgiving hymn and the lyrics of the song really touched me deeply so much so that halfway through the song, tears welled up in my eyes and I guess it was then that the spirit of God touched me.

I am hope for all who are hopeless
I am eyes for all who long to see
In the shadows of the night,
I will be your light
Come and rest in Me

Chorus:
Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine

God works in wondrous ways and at the beginning I was questioning about why certain things had to happen but at the end of it all, I realize that God has a plan in store for me and I should trust in Him no matter what obstacles come my way. I do hope that all the hurts and pain that I feel now will slowly fade away as I come to love God more and more each day.

raeanchiq penned her thoughts @ 11:10 PM